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I never dreamt or thought about a wedding or reception until this weekend. Until I met and got to know you. I feel my heart changing and myself becoming a woman. A beautiful woman who is preparing her life, mind, and soul to possibly find love.

Yes I liked you and still do. But I will continue to remind myself of how you failed to be mature and are no where near ready for a relationship. You hurt me, didn’t make time for me, and you didn’t respect me.

Maybe this is crazy and it probably is. But at times I feel as if perhaps my mentality is that of the ones who are ruining earth. The ones who are chosen for evil. True story. Sometimes I wish I met an intelligent criminal who would turn me onto their ways.
I’m really pretty excited about training at the bar. Then taking what I learned elsewhere and make some dumb money.
The lil lion, we’re incredibly great at this point. It seems to be pretty clear to both of us that we see each other together most likely eventually. Our friendship is wonderful and I cherish it deeply. This is something I should tell my mom :) I didn’t know people like him existed. Its going at an excellent pace now that we are at a good point in our relationship. I have faith in this, its not something I’ve ever genuinely felt. I have faith in myself that I can love someday. I was almost certain love was not in my emotional panel. I am less certain of that now and this is what I refer to as faith.